Right now, I'm watching the NASCAR Sprint Cup race at Las Vegas on TV. Pretty uneventful right now. Earlier, my brother and I were watching reruns of Celebrity Bowling. Sue Ane Langdon isn't much of a bowler, unless sinking gutter balls counts.
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I say this a lot on this blog, but I could use your prayer. Lately, it seems like I see so much bitterness and nastiness, if not outright hatefulness, raising up out of me. I have felt like I'm being tempted to be hateful and angry at others, and especially at God. Which I really don't want to be.
Most of the people who know me and with whom I've cultivated friendships, didn't really know me before I got saved. I was just a mean, hateful, scared person. I didn't have any love in my heart, except for myself. Even then, I was absolutely miserable. When the Lord saved me, He opened my heart to love Him and others. For the first time, I'd been willing to forge relationships and to tKe the risk of being hurt or heartbroken when difficulties came.
I have asked the Lord in prayer to draw out sins in my life, that I may confess and turn from them. It seems like God is drawing out a lot of old bitterness in my heart, which can be deeply discouraging. If He is indeed doing this right now, then pray that I would not be discouraged, but that I would be faithful to confess this sin and thankful that God has forgiven this sin and is removing it from me.
James 5:16 says, "Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much." I guess this is what I've been asking you readers to do for me. I don't know if you have, but if you have done so, then I am thankful to God and to you for your faithfulness.
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