Feeding (physical and spiritual)

I've got a headache that I'm having trouble shaking. I think I might be prone to them as Mom is. Maybe it's an inherited trait, as I've also inherited her looks and short neck.

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Today I went to lunch with some friends. I'd never been to Applebee's before, and it's good to know there's at least one thing on the menu that I'd enjoy it I go again, even if it's just a cheeseburger.

I got to talking with one of the other guys, Josh Petty, about some of the things I've been dealing with lately. I told him about how I've been wanting to change jobs, and that working at UPrinting had been preventing me from attending a Bible study. I also told him how I needed those study meetings as it allowed me to interact with my brothers and sisters in Christ, and had been helping me to overcome my natural inclination to withdraw from others. I had realized that I had been suffering spiritually from the lack of interaction with others, whatever other benefits there may have been.

Josh told me that he had dealt with similar things in his own walk with The Lord, and he brought up Proverbs 18:1, "A man who isolates himself seeks his own desire; He rails against all wise judgment." If there were ever a Bible verse that fit me to a t, this one is it. I think I was aowing myself not to seek out opportunities for fellowship when I should have, and only now have I begun to fully realize the harm I was causing myself.

I ask for prayer, regarding wisdom on what to do, for opportunities for fellowship, for the chance to move on to some other job that would allow to pursue these things, and that I would trust God and His wisdom and goodness throughout all this.

I've had to battle through some very aggressive temptation to distrust The Lord. I described to Josh Petty as being like I was being pushed to not trust God and to grow angry at Him. Satan certainly doesn't want me to trust God, and I know early in my walk that I experienced what more mature believers described as some demonic attack. Pray that I would rely on God's protection, that I would trust in Him to be my very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).